crystalfaeries

20 Aeon = Realization = 2 High Priestess = Unconscious
Another tortured night of "The Beast"... still using the Rigelian Pain Needles in my right shoulder. It always says that's to remind me who is in control, to which i reply that it is who should not be in control.

"The Beast"s' latest scam is "can't deliver ammends" unless i release him from Hell realm. Today i've witnessed Jays fighting in the field... violence beyond previous.
Recent counseling shows issues of loss of appropriateness due to merging with energies/realities not fully self appropriate / readily resolvable by new boundaries in time + merging, and ending? of struggle to control reality/vampirize energy with victimhood being healed by developing self-worth and fairness. These mirror back to me the necessity of ending any allowance of intrusion upon my sovereignty, or any allowance of negative energies / agendae upon me. The biggest issue is that none of the crystalfaeries can even "go home to" their own souls for self-knowing or peaceful self-nurturance, due to the obamination of "The Beast" having terrorized and traumatized their own souls to such an extreme degree with his anal rape torture, that it is no longer possible for them to even be themselves.
How can i even begin to grieve this? -- celeste
Hell hath no fury like that of a mother whose innocent daughter(s) have been raped!

Faery blessings -- celeste