I often awake and have some ideas and feelings about what my day will be like or about, and then flow of the moment makes it completely different :-) In today's case a synchronistic e-mail from a friend offers my triggers:
> Crying is a great release, let it all out!
Yes! With all the rebirthing I've been doing, and the more I stay in my right brain, I find it easier to keep my heart more open, and that's so wonderful because the fullness of feeling seems to result in so much more time and depth of both crying and giggling! I love it!
> I hope everything has been straightened out with [your friends]
I dunno. We've journeyed together through much, and support each other's growth through the lessons du jour. Hopefully they heard the essence of my message, which is that I love them very much, treasure their friendships, and wish to support them, but I have to change how I am in the world, and it has nothing to do with them personally... the same change is reflected in all my relationships, and is sourced in my own self relationship which continues to rebirth. I haven't yet received phone calls from anybody, and I'm always ready to be the one placing the long distance call if I get an e-mail saying call now :-) My problem is in setting boundaries with those I love, I can over-accomodate until I'm off-balance and then I snap-to my balance point again, abruptly, or have to set a hard boundary because I keep accomodating with a soft boundary. Something [a friend] pointed out is that people like [me] are motivated by the desire to be of service, and may overdo it until out of balance. With the world changing so much, and as you said, intense energies now, balance is very dynamic and uncertain :-) I sense this with your focus on presence, the core of being and of balance :-)
Now that my higher self has let up on urgency of website work I am finding my new balance in right brain and music, and much more joy. I'm not sure what the repercussions of my Kaua'i announcement will be, I figure it can't help but polarize people, at least temporarily, and my higher self assures me that it was a necessary wake-up call to the community, helpful to the overall awakening of Kaua'i regardless how my personal relationships are affected. (more being of service, preferably non-sacrificially :-)
The recent communications with [friends], my close friends, about
archons, is for me a closure,
on years of work dealing with archons, gnosticism,
and related issues of planetary consciousness manipulation,
though their own explorations of such may have not concluded.
A separate discussion with another friend covering similar territory shares my conclusion in both timing and closure.
Her vehicle or focus traced some of my earlier shamanic work and some of the more known shamans, and the Gnostics...
all of which is humanity attempting to escape the mental influence of
the non-physical energy parasites / predators who manipulate our logical minds in order to serve their purposes,
leaving many of us to wonder, whose mind do I have?
I've written about that
somewhere on my website, but I'm really done with it now...
Interestingly it gets touched lightly in the very first day of the meditation classes I've taught since 1990,
that as we sit to meditate, easily 2/3 of the thoughts passing through 'our' minds are not even our own.
My final conclusion is to just center in our hearts and follow the right brain intuitive yin and sounds...
which brings me back to my shift of focus now.
I think [my friends] are still finding their own conclusions about archons vs gnostics,
and with the old concept that energy flows where attention goes,
I had to break away from the archons they've invoked to study,
sidestep the last gasps of archon interference with our Kaua'i 8D portal,
and with that, my attention is moving on to new creations.
[A friend] is quickly acheiving mastery with portal work,
so will soon be beyond archontic interference,
but one is more in their own rebirth process and less sure of what to do with portals,
so is more vulnerable to archontic interference now, but I found I had to move on.
Yay... that feels like a completion with past in a big way!
And it feels like a completion of "mission work", Yay!
[A friend] has mirrored my perceptions approximately as:
"Yes, your work is done, now you can trust in the 8D Fae and Portal network,
and finally you can go play."
...and...
saying that to you now I get a huge sigh of relief as my body "gets it",
and it feels real, at last.
And once again I'm giggling at a double entendre with "play",
as for me now,
a big focus of "play"ful activity will be "play"ing my flute,
and more enjoyment of music.
All is frequency.
Mood, attitude, emotion, essences, music, it's all about frequency.
And so we seem to be tracking here, you and I,
each with a new focus or prioritization of our unique ways of personally relating with frequencies.
The 8D energies now directing Kaua'i are triggering everyone on Kaua'i,
regardless their consciousness level,
to "step up" into higher frequencies,
more appropriate frequencies with color, light, sound, essences, etc...
we're all re-tuning to our newly rebirthed selves, finding new realities or balance.
Essences to trigger change, or to anchor into new appropriatenesses,
can really help people now, and it seems we're on the leading edge of this shift,
having brought the portals in, done our personal inner work with them, and finding our new focus.
I just "sat back" and let that all sink in, and I realize that, YES!
Uncomfortable as it was, setting the boundaries I recently did with my non Kaua'i friends,
I'm finally feeling congruent,
when my whole reality is Kaua'i and my personally appropriate focus and vibration,
rather than caretaking outside realities of other places, other people, I feel whole.
Now it's time to caretake our own selves,
our reborn refocussed authentic integrous selves!
YAY! It feels like we're tracking through lessons here.
This both feels like more cocreation from above, and,
a very important release of old inappropriate energies.
New focus.
This feels like 100% anchoring myself into the new energetics of the new Kaua'i,
and it really requires letting go of non Kaua'i
Gaian realities (for me).
This is like clicking into place for me now as I write this.
Versus my old style of healing work,
it's now easier to just pull down an 8D portal to somebody and shift their energetics,
which just totally obsoletes much of my old healing work,
which was of another reality / time / energy-on-the-planet.
Confirmation.
Even more fun was a deeper correlation from those :-) I'm through with careers, which ever "one". The very thought of focussing upon "I have a career" (nevermind which it is) is now obsolete :-) JOY! *giggles* :-)
I'm through not only with "the beast" / "the bank" and with "government (controlling our minds is what that literally means)" I'm through with "commercial thought".. I am not a product! nor a service!
I have long said that
we should live in a world where
each individual is merely following their own
passion / joy / bliss / inspiration / play in the moment...
creating or cocreating whatever the flow of the moment yields,
and then we freely share whatever that is... as a gift from spirit.
Nobody has products, there is no money, only abundant flow of divinity.
Magick is the Truth of Who we Are! We Are Magick! ...and the Magick is in the flow of the moment, in joyous (co-)creation, this is the key to happiness, and to abundance... being in our ecstatic tantrik joy of channelling the divine through us to (co-)create Magick!
And I smile and feel really warm in my heart, and I'm very happy it's so clear, it doesn't matter at all where or when the flow moves on to the next joy of flow... and the divine flow of abundant support by the Law of Attraction and by the Law of One, all comes to the center of it all, heart's joy, the hummingbird, my totem animal from the mainland, number 44, and in my heart I return to my awakening through Tantra, and the ecstatic bliss of essence fully lived.
Releasing all to be fully and only in the now... more so than ever as we've just transformed the energetics of Kaua'i, I feel that this is a whole new quantum level... like before I "came home to" Kaua'i, but that with 8D portals that finally Kaua'i has "come home to" me. We Crystal Faeries restored the Pleiadian Lemurian template. It finally feels like the island's energies now support this reality.
I am reminded of [a friend]'s comment to "trust the Crystal Fae to work things out". I really feel that this is finally a reality that can support my essence. I find a strong correlation in the energetics between Fae and Hummingbird.
I feel that I can surrender into my joy with music, my joy of creating beautiful sounds, not focussing on cash flow. I feel that somehow, the 8D Fae will help us stay in our Joy, that spirit will somehow magically support our true hearts joy, and only our truth, our integrity, our authenticity, our congruity, our essence and our joy of authentic creation from essential self. There is no longer, especially in these new energetics, any support for being inauthentic. We truly must live our truth, we must live Magickal lives. The truth of who we are... Tantrik Magicians. That brings me back to my major move from communicating both my ecstatic joy of heart and my creation via music, rather than with words. And this is the last thing I see with my website now... that my self-description is transforming, because my self expression is transforming. it will get easier as I actually learn to play my flute :-)
I continue to be awesomely inspired by Suzanne Teng... whom I discovered from the 2ndLife™ Magnatune Flute channel and I've found a number of Youtube Videos featuring her, and I'm so inspired by her music and her abilities... and I recognize that I/m "studying the very best" :-)
I play her music, or Bruce Mitchell's, and I am instantly transported to my heart if I wasn't already there... and I instantly feel a deep soul connection of ecstatic bliss from communing with them and their language of love, music. And I dream that someday soon I shall be able likewise.
I find I have a consistent experience of all music, and I enjoy so many different styles, but particularly, I enjoy music without lyrics. Yes, some lyrical pieces are also very inspirational, but nothing so deep and sustaining as instrumental music.
As I claim my music, I'm going to want to begin to "crank it up" and feel acoustically uninhibited, and have space for ecstatic dance.
I'm still learning fingering on my flute not to mention embechoure, so it would have been hard to convey this in a song :-) *giggles*