i find i am content in my deep inner authentic core essence, the peace and appropriateness of my transcendent consciousness, and graceful easy flow of energies. Frequency Holder is a well established new way of life, and Faery Musician / Magickian is a role blossoming nicely with the season. i think I'll have to invent the word "Musegician".
Its perfect when you just are, and release all trying.