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As we journey from duality to unity consciousness,
from ego-personality to higher-self
perspective,
we are faced with our final aversions and attachments within duality,
and as we transcend those one at a time,
the remaining ones intensify as the ego,
defending shrinking territory,
defends more strongly what little separate identity remains as its "security".
One of its defense strategies is denial,
spoken so eloquently decades ago by the Jach Pursel channelled Lazaris:
"I've dealt with my ego!"... says the ego.
What remains is the unique individual
perspective,
and the unique individual will,
the most sacred and defining character of the wholistic individual.
Yet, sadly, few are truly wholistic, especially in the area of will.
Not only is there a split of will between higher and lower selves,
but there are a multiplicity of lower selves each with a "will".
Much of this is conditional programming serving survival strategies,
based in past experience, particularly life-threatening trauma.
Once we can deprogram all of these,
or produce a safe and stable environment which does not trigger them,
we may rise above the lower 3 chakras,
and our concern for physical and emotional safety and nurturance,
to actually live in our soul, our hearts joy, our incarnational purpose.
Actually expressing that divine joy
is usually enough to trigger the repression programming
of everyone around one, who then express it via disapproval,
via resentment that one should have liberated ones soul
while they are still self repressed.
And thus we are still living the zombie-apocalypse on
Gaia,
rather than divine bliss of
Gaia.
Well, i, for 1, cannot go on being half-alive to appease the zombies around me,
so I'm just going to
shake it off and get on with my life as a
Fay girl.