As we are confronted with the changes triggered by the process of ascension, the only possible outcome is that all of who we are comes into alignment with our authentic self, our "higher-self", our spiritual essence. The soul is that part of the higher self which entered the heart chakras' "gold room", the one place inside the physical body of no-time and no-space, the "seat of the soul". Any disagreement between the soul and the higher self is an adventure in spiritual learning, and is one of mutual growth, for the higher self incarnated to learn and grow via the souls' experience, while also offering "spiritual guidance" to the soul to guide its' incarnate journey. The soul is the incarnate self dealing directly with this incarnation, and may have experience of other "past" lives, while the higher-self is most probably going to have multiple "past" lives of experience to draw upon; however, those past lives are often in completely different realities, perhaps on other planets in other body types, and therefore, what the higher self knows to be "true" or "best" may be an anti-truth for the present souls' embodiment, i.e. may be negative "guidance", i.e. is a situation where the higher-self itself is the one required to "grow" and "change" to accomodate new facts, new reality, new experience, i.e. to integrate the benefits of the incarnation it precipitated to grow from, it must grow from souls' experience.
As if the disagreement of "reality" and "will" between higher-self and soul were not complicated enough, we also develop the ego-personality, with its version of "truth" and "reality", and its own will. These are often survival strategies developed in childhood under the tutelage of the lower 3 chakras needs-fullfillment and reptilian-survival-instinct. In my decades of work as a clairvoyant healer, i am often amazed at the cleverness of the ego to find a way to survive and protect itself, in the most dysfunctional and abusive of environments, usually that of a dependent child trying to survive the dysfunctions of its own parents. By the time i get a chance to counsel the being, they are usually struggling to survive in a completely different reality, as an adult, where those perfectly designed childhood strategies are now the most dysfunctional possible responses to present reality. It is often the case that the ego will not give up on its favorite survial strategies until they fail utterly and actually threaten the organism with death, if they will not make a new and different choice about their present circumstances.
As the ascension process brings to light all misalignment between soul, ego-personality, and higher-self, it triggers the final contrast between higher and lower will, the final release of attachment to choices within duality, as ascension into non-dual reality requires release of all polarity. Now, if this is all going on within the context of a reality based in duality, e.g. your typical heterosexual mated relationship, or is being expressed in a new relationship chosen by the higher selves to be appropriate, rather than chosen by the lower ego-personality selves, it will trigger possibly intense contrast between the partners, particularly at the ego-personality level, even the soul level, and occasionally or with split will higher-self, even at the higher-self level, resulting in great conflict, even psywar (psychic warfare).
In my earlier years, i was a young and foolish padawan, a young and eager Djedi Warrior fighting for the right and the light, and willing to jump into contrast to defend someone against any attacking entity, and while this certainly honed my skills, i have graduated from light-warrior, through the role of frequency-keeper, and am now settling into the role of Faery Magician and Faery Musician. So it is with many changes in life, we are often gifted with "final exams" where we are given opportunities to respond in old ways, old patterns, old realities, to stay on old-timelines. And so today i have been blessed (again) with a call to play Djedi Warrior, whereby in counselling both parties of a couple, each is asking me in session to defend them against the intrusion into their crown chakras by their "partner" (frenemy?), and i pointed out that yes i could remove their partner from their crown chakra, (thereby incurring their partner's wrath and a psychic attack transferred from them to me), and that i used to be young and foolish enough to do so, but that as soon as i end the session they're likey to just wind up with the same problem again, and that they needed to make some fundamentally different choices in themselves, or between them, to produce any lasting peace. Fundamental in our reality created by our choice is whether we have chosen to be completely self responsible reality creators.
So, as always, using myself as a teaching example, my remaining attachment to duality is to polarized expression in female and feminine form, both my soul truth, and my ego-personality attachment, and as my own teacher taught us, one of the most challenging of issues is to sort through where you have perfect alignment between some truth, and some ego-attachment which agrees with that truth... so having survived today's temptation to play Djedi Warrior and save from their self-created enemies those who seek my ministry, (which sometimes are diseases within one's own body), i continue to play the mirror game and ask: "What inside me is this a mirror of, that i may see and clear / heal my version of it?"; and so i complete this phase of blogging and go meditate.
While i found my own peace and alignment, the world continued to bring to me those working to find their alignment. Relationships continue to be the focus, as people are either overwhelmed in, or floating on top of the changes, being triggered by the ascension activation energies, and by my readiness to completely leave the reality in which people have access to my olde skills as healer. Only my desires to dance the mating game in duality, for play and for joy, hold any attraction for 4D-. Otherwise I'm living in New-Gaia as Faery Magician/Musican. It's time to celebrate as a peaceful woman upon the land.